Friday, December 31, 2010

So Long 2010 :)

it's 11:21
I don't want to stay awake anymore :P
but we are meeting the neighbors in the street for a toast of champaign at midnight
and the kids want to beat the pots and pans :)

I don't know where my calendar is to look back over the year...
the calendar that is currently being used only goes back to July...

off the top of my head
our basement wall caved in and God provided
I got to go on a weekend getaway with a friend to Memphis
Sophia moved out
I became a ZUMBA instructor
we took an AWESOME week long vacation and got to see LOTS of fabulous friends
I got to take ANOTHER fabulous getaway to a girlfriend's in Fort Worth

there's MY personal recap

Mike changed jobs (twice)
Alex turned 16 and is working on getting her license
Samantha broke her arm on the last day of school :( but she started 3rd grade and had a new friend movein next door. :)
Mia started 2nd grade and also had a friend move in next door.
Zach started PRE-K..he is doing great!!!!
Siler also started preK with his big brother..and has started talking, A LOT!

the latest adventure....the dumpster

we filled it..completely.
I didn't know if I should feel ashamed or excited..
Ashamed that we even ad enough stuff to fill it
Excited that the STUFF is out of my house.

I got up this morning and tackled the garage..
it's much better
not completely finished...

it's 11:30
we are all sooooo tired..
I just told the kids to clean their rooms to start the New Year with clean rooms :P
They are exchausted and getting VERY slap happy!!!

Resolutions for this year

Have friends over more often..dinner parties, bon fires..whatever!!!
Mike wants to fish (trout, fly, whatever! ;p), bike more, skeet shoot...

I want to cook. (I WANT TO LIKE TO PREPARE MEALS! lol)
I want to FOLLOW a budget
I don't have a lot of personal goals this year...
be the best Zumba instructor I can be

I think I am going to take back what I just said
I ALWAYS have a lot of personal
I am just not going to share all of then at this time...

11:36..I am fading fast...

Lord willing...I have goals for my 40th and 50th years..
I would like to run a marathon when I am 40
and when I am 50 (Zach and Siler will be 18 and 16) I would like to take the family to New York City for New Year's Eve.

The continuing education catalog came and they had a Play the piano in ONE DAY and Play the guitar in ONE DAY..that I would like to take..but we'll see

I also want to get my Personal and Group Training Certifications...I don't know if I am shooting for that this year or next...

Above all I want to do what Matthew 6:33 says "SEEK GOD FIRST" and everything else comes after :)

so there you have goals and bucket list all in one :)
It's 10:00 :)
I just finished playing JUST DANCE 2 on the Wii with Sam and Mia :)
Sooo fun! :)
:) Happy New Year's Eve :)

I will be back to write a novel later today :)

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Yesterday was "something" :P

I taught in the morning...had three people...TOTALLY FORGOT A PORTION OF A SONG! There were two girls that were regulars that just laughed and a brand new girl that I begged to not judge me by this first experience :P At the end of class she was smiling super big and said she feels she learned new dance moves to take to the club...*whew!* :P lol

I am in the process of coming up with the next playlist for the next DVD to get sent out...this one will be higher intensity than the last one but will give a good variation for how you are feeling that day :) Light and airy or let's kick some booty :) I am hoping to send it out for Valentine's Day :)

We went to buy an air hockey table from Craigslist last night...we left without was falling apart :/ so the search is still on for one.

on the way home....Mike backed into another vehicle. :( so we will be waiting to hear the damage on that.

Life is still good. :) I am glad to be on "this side"

I am not trying to talk "holier than thou" when I say this....but NO WEAPONS FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL what I know...

and God loves matter what people say about me, think about me, no matter what I HAVE or have NOT done....and THAT makes life Great :)

(((((BEAR HUGS))))) to you , my friend! I appreciate the love and support I receive from you. :) :) :) :)

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Banana Muffins

This is the 3rd or 4th time I have made these this month. :P they are sooo easy and sooo delicious!!!

mix these together and set aside
1 and 1/4 cup flour
1 tsp. baking powder
1 tsp. baking soda
1/2 tsp salt

and then mix these together
3 bananas, mashed
3/4 cup sugar ( I just use white..I am thinking about trying the SUGAR in the RAW..I don't know that it would make a difference)
1 egg
and 1/3 cup butter, melted ( I didn't have any butter today so I used coconut oil....they taste fabulous either way)

fold the flour mixture into the banana mixture and scoop into your muffin liners :)

25-30 minutes for large muffins
10-15 for small

25 is always plenty of time for mine

if you know me, you know I do NOT like to be in the kitchen or cooking..but mygosh these are YUMMY!!!
( I am eating one while I type ;p)

and I do wait for my bananas to turn BLACK...that might be the Top Secret to such delicious muffins. :D
Home from Zumba..
had a one hour conversation with a beautiful lady
it brought me to a question..

The last thing I said to my husband this morning was "I am only responsible for my own actions."

but now I am asking myself "WHAT ARE MY MOTIVES?"
ok...mentally I am feeling a lot better..a LOT A LOT A LOT!!! Sorry I chose to drag you through that with me :P'

Physically..I am S O R E...girls..the practice I have put in...and the class I did last night (my hair was shower wet!!!!)
the loads of heavy bags into the dumpster
the big load of firewood
running  through the BOUNCE AROUND last night with Siler (yesterday was Siler's birthday!!)

oh my gosh my body is like YYYYOOOOUUUUUUCCCCCHHHHHHH! lol

Alex watched SHAWSHANK REDEMPTION for the first time yesterday..I didn't have time to watch the whole thing with her but I caught maybe the last 30 minutes??? Such a great movie...

I need to get off here and start some coffee, shower, get ready for class this morning....and then the only thing I know for sure is I have to play a card game with Sam today after ZUMBA..she asked me last night but I was exhausted from all the dancing and I had a headache from &^%&^%&..

Mike is going bike riding

that is all I know for today :D

Have a blessed day! :)

Monday, December 27, 2010


I felt the need to come back and give God more glory than I gave Him credit for earlier.

I was embarrassed in the first place to blog such personal stuff...fear of being judged...and looking so weak...
but I am not one to lie...
and though not all people share as much as I do (or even have close to the amount of emotions or drama filled lives :P lol)
I am one that shares feelings...and to not share..I feel like I am being "fake" and being "fake" makes me feel like I am "lying"

ok, so there is why I shared such deep feelings...

BUT!!! God came through for me! and I didn't even ask!
It's CRAZY that Joyce sent me a Thank you gift when I am not even a partner!
It's CRAZY that it told me to NEVER GIVE UP when my insides were telling me to GIVE UP..

I called my bestie (momsgonegodly) who reassured me (once again) that I am okay..and as I am telling her about the Joyce gift..I opened it and there was a bracelet inside....
it says RELENTLESS on one side and NEVER GIVE UP on the other...
and it's MY color!!!

people have NO IDEA who they are dancing with when they ZUMBA with me...
From far bracelets look ALL ZUMBA ISH
no sisters..
FREEDOM = from human trafficking
ONE MORE= for always searching for ONE MORE that needs Jesus

Thank you God! Thank you God! Thank you God! :)
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I am going to hold my head up

I am going to continue doing the laundry and dishes and clean the kitchen...

I will beat this feeling.

I have to pay bills...the bank called and said our debit card has been compromised (AGAIN!)
I am going to go back to the cash under the mattress and money orders if it happens a 3rd time :P LOL

I am smiling...see :) I am going to be just fine :) :) :)
I hope I am just tired and not sick.
My body hurts.
Honestly..I think I am just severely depressed.
I have been fighting it for DAYS.
I walk around angry because I am so sad and I cannot tell Mike.
He wouldn't understand.
He truly does not understand depression.
Then I get angry because God is amazing and I have so many reasons to be JOYFUL and HOPEFUL and I hate when this depressed feeling is "winning"

If I told people that I was suicidal..they would not believe me.
I am not going to do anything...
but I do have thoughts.
They come and go, really quick.
I hear words from my mother and sister and they keep going on and on and on in my head
Add words from Sophia and they replay on and on..
I am so tired...
I just want rest.

I know that is where Jesus comes in..
I need His rest.

I was switching laundry and Zachary brought me a package from the mail..
Joyve Meyer sent me a free DON'T GIVE UP lesson...DVDs and a workbook and book.
It was a THANK YOU for support this year..
I was surprised..because, yes, I send her support, but I am not a "PARTNER" like with a monthly commitment...
I guess it came in due time
God needs me to NOT GIVE UP because He has a huge plan for my life and it's not about me, it's about Him.

but that doesn't mean that I have to sit and be a doormat and let people treat me like crap and just act like nothing happened..
or maybe it does.

we'll see.
Just unloaded a big load of wood from the van...Mike's dad had it for us Christmas day.
Made a HUGE dent in the basement yesterday! oh my gosh the stuff we threw away!
I will take pictures soon...
the kids have a library and an art studio
I don't know if we have fully decided on getting an air hockey table or not...
we have a foosball table..
I have an area to scrapbook.
and the storage awesome!

the only thing I am not sure about are the older pics I have framed...I OBVIOUSLY do not want  to get rid of them..but I don't want to store them either...I guess I will take them out of the frames and scrapbook them...and maybe reuse the frames? I don't know.

It is really really time to get family pictures!!!

well, I need a shower..I was practicing this morning and now I am sweaty..

I have a TODO list in my mind, as always..but my husband is getting ready to go bike riding so I will PAUSE my brain for a while..and make my list :D

Have a fantabulous day!

Saturday, December 25, 2010

I should not have worn the "skinny"jeans.
I should have worn maternity jeans.
or maybe I just should not have made the food choices I made. :P
A hot dog from QT on the way to Christmas.
A small piece of mint cake/pie?
A piece of chocolate
Some kind of candied pear?
A date with a nut in it?
and then like 6 cookies on the way home

in my dumb dumb voice "I DON'T KNOW WHY MY TUMMY IS BLOATED" :P

I think I might have one more cookie, go to bed, and start new in the a.m. :D
My Alex was crying in her bathroom this morning because of the "fighting" between our families...
but we AREN'T fighting

*rolling my eyes*

I feel bad for her, I do. but I am sooo frustrated that she can't understand that I put up with it for as many years as I could...
next year she will have a car and she can go visit if she chooses.
LOL...yea, we did NOT go to the basement. :P
Mike had a fire going all day.
The kids did play.
I think I may have made a mistake with the my Christmas present.
I asked for something to convert our family VHS tapes to DVDs
we put in Sophia's 1st birthday home video
I had a lump in my heart the whole time..
and not just because she's gone now...

I don't think I want to revisit the past.


I guess I am just going to have to get a really great EDIT software and only capture highlights..

I thought it was going to be as easy as pressing PLAY at night before going to bed and then burning a DVD the next morning. :P I am so funny.: )

I am off to make more yummy coffee from my fabulous friend...

Merry Christmas to you. :)
Unto us was born this day, in the city of David, a savior..Jesus. :) :) :)
YAY!!!! Thank you Jesus!!!! :) :) :)

Friday, December 24, 2010

The dumpster arrived yesterday :) :) :) (with a bonus sanitary napkin stuck to the bottom, unused :P)
I have not touched the garage or finished the basement but it's only been a day...I had to teach a class last night, meaning I had to stop and shower and didn't get back into it when I got home.

Mike and I got to go Christmas shopping last night..we took Siler since he doesn't FULLY understand what is going on and he wouldn't tell people their gifts :) Sam, Mia, and Zach stayed with Alex.

I have totally not been focusing on Jesus , the reason for the season..

I mean, yes, I talk to him daily...somewhat get into His Words, the Joyce Meyer so I can hear truth..
but the actual sitting down and reaffirming what He did...humbling himself to come as a lowly human, to serve and to save us...
I cannot fathom how it felt to Mary...a virgin, giving a STABLE!
I cannot imagine the celebration of visible angels and the beautiful star..

It's so weird that we hear stories about it..but it REALLY happened.

We have never read the Christmas Story from the Bible at Christmas time...
I think we might start today.
(before we open presents or I will not get anybody's attention :P)
I should probably read it from Zach's Bible :D

other than that....after children open their presents this morning...Mike and I are heading to the basement to throw his stuff away :) I hope the children's gifts keep them busy :) :) :)

tomorrow we visit his family...stress free. :)

Sunday...FREE DAY!!!!

Merry Chistmas my sweet friends....I love you a lot. :) :) :) and I hope you are having a blast with your loved ones, be it family or friends :) :) :)

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

this booty shot was made just for MOMSGONEGODLY..
oh my gosh, that girl turns me SILLY!
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If you only knew how uncomfortable I used to be with a camera around...
but MOMSGONEGODLY requested pics and I don't give up many chances to be silly these days :P

Striking a pose :P
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my super cute new black shoes :P

the back of my new watch

my watch that makes me feel so pretty :)

My precious son that was watching his Mama feel like a pretty pretty princess :D He decided to "dress up" too :)
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I ordered a dumpster.
it's being delivered tomorrow
What could I possible have to get rid of THIS time?
3rd dumpster has to be the charm! :P

The first dumpster was for all the flooring
The second was for our deck
This one is JUST FOR.
I am sorry...I am usually "waste conscience" but NOT RIGHT NOW
It has to go and I don't have time to clean it up and find a home for it.

( I will probably end up posting it free on Craigslist before it goes in but if I don't, I won't have guilt :P)
So many things going on with my friends.
sickness, marriage problems, money problems, lack of sleep
I pray for healing for my friends.
A praise report on one friend's marriage..
She was at the end. Had plans to go.
She found a counselor that has figured out the issue in her husband..
(and the husband is willing to work on it)
They are on the road to healing. :)

I pray that we all remember that God supplies our NEEDS
if we don't have it right now, we don't NEED it right now.
I hope I take that into the New Year as my help

I saw this article a LOOOOONG time ago...
"Neat people get rid of neat things"
I have remembered that for a long time and it has helped me purge many NEAT things :P

so now I need to remember "IF I DON'T HAVE IT YET, I DON'T NEED IT YET" :D

Mike and I used to make our wish lists at the New Year and put them aside and check off waht we accomplished at the end of the next year....we haven't done that in a couple of years but I would like to do it again. ( now that I have an office and I can find a place to keep the list) :)

I am going to go have my first cup of coffee this morning. My sweet sweet friend mailed me a Starbuck's sampler and my house smells soooo good.

I love you friends, I really do.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Continued from last post so you maybe want to read that first?

So I finished my last post with "I'll be quiet now" because what I was going to do was keep tooting my own horn and say "AND I "STARTED" TODAY..because I was talking about how fabulous my trying on jeans went. but I wasn't going to say it because , as always, it's TMI..I am a pro at TMI...
BUT! the reason I am saying it because NOW I KNOW WHY THE REMARK AT KOHL'S BOTHERED ME SO! and everything else that was so "annoying"...

I was talking to my bestie today and she asked me if I was on my period...


hormones hoover. :/
My friend picked me up around 5:45
we drove around while we talked
we were passing a Kohl's at 7
I asked her if she wanted to dress me like a Barbie doll
(this girl LOVES shopping...I would say "lives for it" but that's not entirely true..though she would make an excellent personal shopper and I am considering getting her a debit card from my account with her name on it, we had SO MUCH FUN!

I SWORE I would NEVER revisit skinny jeans and she got me to buy a pair....(she told me how jealous she was about how I looked in could I pass them up?..gosh if you didn't really know me, I sound awful right now :P :P :P) lol

I have been wanting a pair of black tennis shoes. cute ones. not for running. not for cross training. not for Zumba. just cute black tennis shoes to wear with jeans to the grocery store. cute.
well, I got a pair of black Reebok Tone ups or whatever they are called. (they were on sale and I had a 20% off and I was tired of wanting them :P)
they had size 7 and size 8. The 8s were WAY too big and the 7s were a little snug but I thought I could handle it..
I got home and wore them around the house and they were just uncomfortable enough that for the money I spent, I was not satisfied.

we decided to take a family outing to Target. The girls and I all needed pantyhose and tights for the Nutcracker Ballet..we were all wearing pretty dresses.

while we were out I decided I would run into another Kohl's and see if they had a 7 1/2. Mike and the kids were going to run through DQ drivethrough while they had to wait for me ( I also had to try on bras..all I own are sportsbras and the pretty dress I was wearing needed something other than that :P)

Mike didn't have his phone with I had no way of calling him when I was finished. It was 2:45 so I said.."let's just meet out here at 3:30"

when he pulled away I thought "you are going to stand in line at Customer Service to make an exchange, try on bras and CHECKOUT on "sale Saturday" at Kohl's the LAST Saturday before Christmas in FORTY FIVE minutes????" RRUUUUUUNNNNN! :P

so 1st stop...SHOES. they had my size...YES!!!
I am walking FAST..with a HUGE smile on my face...probably swinging my arms and possibly my behind..
walking walking..
I see an older man and lady sitting in the display massage chairs...
I smile EVEN BIGGER at them as I pass
I am thinking..
"they are so sweet, they must be tired from shopping and those chairs must feel good"
as I pass..the lady, in (what I assuming is) her most sour puss voice, asks "is there a fire?"

I am aware that doesn't sound mean..but you had to be there to hear the sarcasm...

so I am still walking fast, still smiling...but I was like "REALLY?"

[insert where I play the victim] um, yes, I have a van full of kids and a's very hard to getaway for this kind of "me time", unless it's 5am when stores are not open...I don't have family in the area that can help and it is OUTRAGEOUS paying for a sitter. Older sister, EVEN IF SHE WANTED TO HELP, is busy too..and my husband doesn't have a phone on him so I HAVE to hurry and WHY????when I just gave you the BIGGEST smile EVER do you even have to say ANYTHING at ALL much less SOMETHING SOOOOOO GRUMPY?????? (and Kristin, if you are reading this...we WILL do the babysit exchange in 2011 but I couldn't call you.I KNOW you are as busy as me right now. :P)

but I kept smiling and I kept walking fast.....
and there was a long line at Customer Service..and I kept smiling
and when I took care of the shoes...
I went to the bras
and when NONE of the bras I wanted had my size, I kept smiling
and I finally found one that would work
and then I was walking by this most gorgeous scarf
and I bought it

and I had to take Mia to get shoes..and the first two stores didn't have them
I kept smiling
The third store did..YAY PAYLESS!!!!

Got home, showered, got prettied up...
in the car...

oh here is where I have to stop my conversation with you.
Lesson learned with my first child..I should not have written everything she did...
I apologize to you and to her....well, I haven't apologized to her because we do not speak...but I would apologize to her if we did. :P

let's just say..Alex is a teenager
and there is a reason that God makes babies come out really really really cute, sweet and cuddly...because if they came out as teens...they'd never make it and humans would be extinct because nobody would ever reproduce :D
and some of you may have teenagers that have the highest amount of respect for you, their parent...and if that is the case..please count your blessing. :)

but even during our time of disrespect and her rolling of her eyes, I kept silent and continued to smile
and when we were walking to the ballet and my shoes were causing my toes to yell out because of the torture they were feeling, I smiled (it was a wincing smile by now ;p) know keeps getting "better" and I keep smiling..
this is turning into one of those "MEET THE FOCKERS" type movies..where it just keeps coming..LOL

so I will finish with a happy summary

My friend is fabulous and she will be fabulous.
My other friend going through painful struggles is going to be fabulous
I am going to be fabulous.
I had an excellent time shopping with my girlfriend!!! we are going back on Sunday because we have KOHL'S CASH to spend :D It was sooooooo wonderful hanging with her not talking about husbands, kids, life...we were just girls...oh my gosh it was soooooo awesome!!! It was like having a sister!!!!!!!
(I was showing her new ZUMBA moves in the PETITE section :P)

and I will not brag about the size I got in but I will tell you, it was GOOD! :D Both of our mouths dropped!
I will be quiet now.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

My friend just called me at 5:30 and asked if she can come get me because of the hurt she is going through. she is on her way. Obviously I won't share what is spoken to me..but I pray that I have ears to listen and that I keep my mouth SHUT unless they are words of healing....

I have been running crazy happy...I cannot believe how fast time flies when you are having FUN!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

:) I guess it's the first Christmas without Sophia here that is getting to me
She makes me sad, angry, numb.
I , out of habit, want to say "it doesn't matter."
but obviously it matters.
I had a dream that my mom was lying on her back and I was straddling her none to nose eye to eye and I told her I hope she is happy
She lost her daughter and I lost mine
and hopefully the curse will stop here so Sophia won't lose her first daughter too.

I guess that dream tells me I still have some deep rooted anger issues.
DUH. lol
I am smiling.
I know I am on a good road. (believe it or not)
I cannot help that I had that dream
I shouldn't have let it put me in a funk.
but I did and now I know and now I have the choice on what to do from here.

I will keep moving forward.

I will appreciate the wonderful blessings I DO have. :)

(I cannot wait to get the video up of Siler doing a somersault..I don't think I talked about it on here but I know I did on's hilarious!!! I have a goal to get it on here by 1/1/11 :P)
I am very frustrated..annoyed, embarrassed..ticked off...
wow! everything but joyful, hopeful, faithful huh?
I guess I should change that tude.
only a VERY best friend can tell me "Robbie, you have absolutely no structure in your life and THAT works for YOU!" :) (and if that sounded mean, trust me, it wasn't!)

that doesn't mean that I don't want structure, or strive for it...LORD DO I STRIVE FOR IT! but I have GOT TO QUIT BEING SUCH A WORRY BEING!

My very best friend informed me how fabulous my household is...
how amazing my children are
what a good Mama I am...

she reminded me to not play the compare game..
it's no fun
does no good

I love my friends.

and I am glad to be back. :)
Alex is sitting on the livingroom floor SURROUNDED by newspapers, cardstock, scissors, notebooks...what a mess. :P
I just took banana muffins out of the oven..oh, the sweet smell! and the taste?  even better!!! I have found the PERFECT banana muffin recipe. :D
Sam is playing her DS sitting next to Alex and her mess.
Mia just left with a friend....wearing her pajamas and snow boots...I guess that was okay? lol
Zach and Siler are wandering around the house in their undies...I put undies on Siler today...SPIDERMAN...I told him Spiderman doesn't want pee or poop on him so let me know if he has to go. :P Alex told me I should sit on Santa's lap and tell him "ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS MY LAST ONE POTTYTRAINED" (it would be a lie list is looooong :P)

I just got the phonecall that my ZUMBA class is cancelled tonight. BUMMER! I guess that means I should limit the amount of muffins I eat. :P (maybe I should throw in one of my DVDs and see if I can follow it :P lol)

actually I can use that time to practice some new songs! :)

ok, I am going to go love on my boys...and wait for Sam to come take her turn..she is such a love bug!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

home from Zumba class...
even though I have changed ALL my clothes...(down to the socks and intimates) I cannot warm up....the sweat and cold mixture. :P

well, my all or nothing old self is just what it is...All or nothing.
Two weeks ago I had a "menu plan" and I followed it for 4 days..
I take that back
I followed it for 3 days and on the 4th day I didn't follow it but we did use the meat that I had set aside for meatloaf and made nachos instead.
I think we have ate out everyday since.

I'll be back later..Siler wants to cuddle :)
I am here. :)
Just running in circles with a little cloud of blah trying to hover over me
but I think I am outrunning it :P

Watched the season finale of Biggest Loser last was by far the "WEIRDEST" season.

I am sitting here in a towel with wet hair..I guess I could act civilized and get dressed, grab a cup of coffee..have a quick chat with Daddy and confess what a grumpy, pouty monster I have been (on the inside, no one really knows, well, now you do :P).

yea, I'll be back. :)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

:) My Saturday morning Zumba girls have requested I "kick their butts" next Saturday because the two following Saturdays are Christmas and New Year's. :) :) :) I will be working on new Zumba songs tomorrow and the rest of this week. :)

I wish I would have been recording this was soooo hilarious..I actually had tears from laughing so hard (while dancing)  *letting out a happy sigh*

well, I am utterly exhausted...Mike and I got to take Alex on a date tonight. The four young ones went to Parents Night Out. We took her out to eat and then to the mall...where Mike went his own way because we were "intimates" shopping. :p
My feet hurt.

We were at Victoria's Secret and they had this 12 perfume sampler for $25 and we had a $10 off so we are sharing ..we get 6 scents each and we each like different ones, it's so cool :)

Before she got off work, I ran to her store and bought really cute clothes for Zach and Siler...the girls took pictures of the modeling show while I was whipping up some chocolate chip cookies so I may load them up tomorrow. :) but I got lots of clothes for them, and an AWESOME blue button down shirt for me and a pair of the tall boots that Mike doesn't like but they were $1! I was like "I CAN WEAR THEM WHEN HE IS NOT AROUND!" lol..for $1!!! They are not "seductive in any way! big ol chunky Alex and I will probably still call them my hooker boots just because that is what Mike calls tall boots...*rolling my eyes* :P

I have to get to bed..I didn't realize how late it wonder I'm exhausted. :P Good nIght!

Friday, December 10, 2010

I think my gift for hospitality is a thing in the past. I would love to take a "gifts" test again.
They boys and I hit the town today. :)
Famous Footwear and left with new shoes for Siler.
Walgreens and left with like 6 calendars. :P One for each daughter and one for Zachary (he said he wants to learn how to use one) and two for upstairs, one down.
Gift cards for all the nieces/nephews
Walmart and left with a chocolate longjohn and some glazed donuts..and some pretty baskets to put our crafts in..I am sure a picture is coming soon on that one.
I wanted to go vacuum the van but sweet Siler fell asleep and I decided to bring him that I think about it, I should try to catch a catnap.

Today is Sam and Mia's LAST DAY of school until January something!!!!
We are having a Pizza/Movie night COOL RUNNINGS!!! :) :) :)


I think I do this every Friday now.
I think it is because I know it is my day off and I don't have to be "ON" for Zumba.

I laid in bed until 4 and I couldn't take it anymore.
I have balanced the checkbook and paid bills.
It doesn't look good but it's only because I fronted my sweet 16 year old a lot...we are going to "talk" today. :P what I mean by "talk" is "COLLECT" lol

I have had many thoughts flying through my head (as always)...
I always feel bad that I am so compassionate.
I never want to be a downer when I speak of the hungry, hurting, homeless, abused..the sex trafficking...all that stuff...but it is who I am and it is what my heart knows.
I just don't know what God would have me do with this heart except PRAY...
and yes, I have faith..God given FAITH...but do I? Faith the size of a mustard seed is supposed to move mountains...
I just feel like the mountains I want moved are SOOOO LARGE and SOOOO MANY!

Father, please bless the ministries that already have their hand in your service...feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, helping the hurting, housing the homeless....

I am not a spoiled brat. I am blessed, beyond blessed. and I am grateful beyond words.
Thank you Jesus for my husband and the gift that you gave him for the field he is in...
Thank you that the field he is in is able to support the children that you have given to us (or lent us :P)
Seriously Father...please help me get to the bottom of my heart issue of why I am not a good servant with the money you allow us...I really want to make this change but I cannot do it on my own...though I know you give us each our own allowance of self control, please help me learn how to use mine????

Thank you so much Father for the friends you have placed in my life...some that I speak to on a daily basis..and the ones that I don't really know, but I know I love them...

Thank you for my health and ability to reach people through something as fun and fantastic as ZUMBA. One friend referenced it as "magic fairy dust" LOL!!!!! all I know is it's more than "dancing" is healing after a hard is an escape from the uglies in the world (for one hour nothing can touch you!) it is soul much FUN :)

I really want to start wouldn't be ZUMBA..because ZUMBA is latin is INTERNATIONAL music...African, Indian, etc... I want to create a "universal" Christian Hip Hop :)  I hear songs all the time that I am like "OOOHHHHHH MYGOSH THIS WOULD BE FU UN!" :)

well, anyway...those are my Friday early morning ramblings....
it is 5am.
I think I am going to wake Alex and see if she wants to sneak to QT for a hot chocolate and an early morning WalMart run. :) :) :)

Have a super blessed Friday..I am sure I will be back, but if not..have a great weekend..

Thursday, December 9, 2010

I am taking the boys to school today...going to try to get some things accomplished. Wish me luck. ;)
Maybe I will call a friend for lunch :)

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

OK! so I was going through the Gingerbread House Excursion and I didn't know how to pick which ones to I put all of them in an album that you can choose to visit or not..:P

There are a couple of pics from when we were in Effingham that I didn't feel like taking out

There is a 3 second video of Siler that you can't really see because the lighting in our livingroom is really NOT lighting..but I tried taking it of him wearing the girls' heels.

there are just silly pictures of the kids and me one night after ZUMBA and it was a pizza night..YUM! I LOVE PIZZA!

There are pictures of me trying to show you some boots I bought..and took back...Mike does NOT like tall boots...but I wanted to capture the moment that I did have them in my possession..I never really accomplished it..but it was so funny trying

so all this to warn you, there are 60plus pics but I think I captioned the ones that were maybe otherwise unexplainable why I had them? lol

it's 10pm and I am heading to bed..see you all tomorrow :)
Taking care of business. :) Be back soon. :)
I keep coming over here to type and I don't have time!!!! Maybe later tonight?

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

I don't know if I can watch Biggest Loser without getting the itch to run a marathon!!!! I think if I had someone who would commit to train with me CONSISTENTLY. I would SOOOOO do it! I think that is going to be my 40th year birthday present. For real.
I don't know that you will be able to understand what I am saying but I will tell you anyway.

First of all , I still have a gym membership. Even though I cancelled in September...I kept getting charged and I call every month and FINALLY this month he asks "did you come in and sign papers?" um, NOOOO! duh on me! so anyway...since I have the membership till the end of the month, I decided to go to a ZUMBA class this morning. With MY instructor.
Towards the end, she did a familiar song and I almost starting was the feeling I had over the summer..being a student, not a an old familiar place..I smiled the entire hour...and when the hour was over I could not hold back the tears...
I told my instructor I am quitting my job so I can come back and be a student...but then I told her I realize what it is...

have you ever been to a one week camp? Or an awesome vacation? and at the end, though it's time to just cry happy tears from the wonderful memories and the sadness that it's over??? I had the BEST summer taking Zumba classes from my instructor, Tracy. I love her with ALL my heart...but it's time to go and it's so bittersweet.'s time to get the kids out of bed...
I watched a part of Joyce Meyer this morning...Alex and I were CRACKING was about Abraham and Sarah having their baby after Sarah had already gone through "the change" and Abraham looked down at his own 90 year old body that was almost dead if you want to see it yourself :)

We are having chili tonight. I am going to throw it in the crockpot on LOW this morning...and I found a very simple recipe for cornbread that I will make this afternoon, before I leave for Zumba.

Biggest Loser tonight. It is by far the worst season but I will still watch...I hope Ada wins but tonight is not the finale.

ok, you have a fantastic day..DREAM BIG and NEVER GIVE UP :) :) :)

Monday, December 6, 2010

it's 9:00 and the girls are actually tucked in!

Dinner made, dishes cleaned, dinner for tomorrow prepped...homework done, backpacks ready for tomorrow.
I don't know how people are responsible EVERY DAY. I am zonked. :P
I am hoping this "responsibility thing" will get me out of my constant tornado...
I am aware it is going to take more than one day :P

Dinner tonight was not a winner..but that is okay..I'll keep trying.  :)

ok, I have to go to bed.
Good night Sweet Friends.
It's Monday :)
I am on 6 hours sleep...which I know I used to get less than that but I have spoiled myself (as it should be) getting 8. :) but it's okay...Zumba will zap some energy into me this morning. :)

Alex and I went to WalMart last night. One of those really fun 2 hour excursions. :) I love those.

I hope all is well with you all today.

TAGG, I saw your chapstick and SOOOO wanted to buy it and send it to you  :)
(it's the thought that counts)

My coffee is ready..I am going to get Bible time in with my Daddy before the little ones rise from their slumber :P


Sunday, December 5, 2010

how could I forget?

Yesterday, Mike was working on a computer...with a screwdriver, taking it apart...
Siler was sitting there watching the whole time.
A little while later Zachary brings me BuzzLightyear, whose back and batteries are missing..
I walk in the boys bedroom and asked "WHO TOOK BUZZ'S BACK OFF?"
Siler, grabs a screwdriver, and with the biggest, most proud smile EVER, he yells "I DID!!!!"

I said "well, he IS almost 3 and he has been watching you all day."
Mike "I never thought showing him how to use a screwdriver would be a bad thing."
Good News..Buzz, his batteries,his back, and his wings have all been replaced and he is in great working order...
and Siler is sooo cute. :)
Mike and I went on a date last night with two other couples. It was a lot of fun. WAAAAAAY too expensive but a lot of fun. I told them we need to gather at homes instead of restaurants.

I just ordered some cute things from for Mike to put in my stocking. :) My new favorite color is aqua blue...I have Zumba pants and shoelaces in that color. Zumba is selling a scarf and mittens in that color. :) and I got a new shirt that says ZUMBA INSTRUCTOR on the back. :P WHOA HO HO. :P lol

I had a margarita last night. I seriously do not know why I do that to myself. It was delicious! and I was fine, but I wake up feeling lousy..what's the point? :( :/

well, I guess I will make a pot of coffee and get on with today? Mike and I need to get a sitter and get out of here to go Christmas shopping...and then find somewhere to hide it. :)

Saturday, December 4, 2010

My rolodex needs a makeover in a bad way. I don't know how old it is but I don't talk to half the people in it anymore and Lord knows most of my friends have moved in the last 4 years....(it's been almost 4 years since we left Fort Smith)

well, some of you should be getting your DVDs by now....TAGG, I didn't get yours sent until yesterday so you have a few days.

today...I woke up late for me..VERY was 7:45. I leave at 8:15 to take Alex to work and get to my work by 8:45. I had to shower and get my make-up on...
I taught a class without coffee or breakfast. :/ ;p
unfortunately by the time I got home, I already had a caffeine headache....that is so scary how caffeine does that and "one of these days" I will research WHY that happens...

it's now 2:30. Mike is out skeet (?) shooting.. it has become his Saturday hobby. :) He works VERY hard during the week, I am VERY glad he has an outlet. :) This is mine. :)

well, I am going to check out some new Zumba music....
:) :) :) :) :)

Friday, December 3, 2010

in my Jamaican accent.."how 'bout I draw a line down the middle of your head so it looks like a butt."
 I love Cool Runnings, the movie!!! :) :) :)
I love empty trash cans and full tanks of gas.

and I love this verse...Colossians 1:10 That you may walk (live and conduct yourselves) in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to Him and desiring to please Him in ALL things.

(that ALL is "something" isn't it?)

I can't go back and change anything but so many things come to my mind that I wish I could. I don't know that they would have made a difference or not?

well, choices have been made and only time will tell ..I can't change the past or predict the future soooooo.....I will reflect on Colossians 1:10 and start over today :)

It does sadden me to say this...last week I was SOOOOO excited that this is my FIRST YEAR in MANY that my New Year's resolution is NOT going to be "get healthy" or "lose weight" or whatever...I was like "YAAAAY ME!!!!" but then this morning as I was reading my Bible and just thinking....I don't think we have been to church since mid August!!! and I was like, well, we can make it our New Year's resolution to get back in the swing of things.:( I would have never thought I would be saying those words!!!!! A New Year's resolution to go to church???? well, I am saying it...and now that I have said it out loud, I am not sad anymore. I am humbled and excited. :) I know the whole term "if you wanna start something, why not now?" and maybe we could start now...and I could give you excuses why not..but I won't..we will just see. :)

My husband just stepped out of our bedroom..he is incredibly handsome and makes me smile :)
Siler just walked out behind him, jabbering away....
Mike is putting him on the potty for me...:)

I guess I should get off here and start my was nice spending some of my morning with you. :)
I am going to try to get pics on here today or at least this weekend. :) I have them from Thanksgiving..the gingerbread house excursion :P

so here's what happened...
Siler peed in the potty TWICE today..
he called his Daddy and VERY CLEARLY told him what he did (SOOOOO CUTE!)
Daddy and I, of course, thought we should celebrate with some MADE FRESH DAILY CUSTARD. :P

picked up girls from school
picked up dinner on the way home
Daddy worked late :(
took kids for ice cream

came home and the girls didn't have homework :)
Family channel has the 25 days till Christmas
The Santa CLAUSE was on
we all watched it together
I fell asleep at the end (well, Santa was going to jail)

Movie over
Get all the kids in their own beds
Mike has to do some more work
I decide to clean the vanity in my bathroom
then I decided to declutter my office
now it is almost midnight and I am up...

I do not need ONE MORE THING in my house
but I wish I had a scanner
as I was cleaning up my office area, I came across this picture of Alexandria and Sophia that I love SOOOOOO much....I would love to share it with you..
we had many happy times. :)
gosh that seems like an ETERNITY ago.

I have piles of paper to get rid of, piles of clothes to put away
Alex has a load in the dryer that I can't decide if I feel like folding or not.
She waits until she has MANY dirty clothes and Stuffs my EXTRA CAPACITY over its capacity :P
I am not complaining..she does her own laundry.

I better go down and start my dishwasher.
I want to take more trash out but hello, it's 29 degrees out and I am sitting here in my shirt and panties (TMI sorry!!!)

I had quite the adventure with PBS online today. it's a long/short story. I may have to tell it tomorrow, or never..but Zach thought he was going to have to play a game for a year straight...that is the punchline. and it is a funny punchline if you know the whole story.

Mia wants a locket in her stocking with a picture of Mike and me.
If we Christmas shop within our budget..
I am not even going to finish that thought..
we are blessed. we are blessed. we are blessed.

Mike is finished with his work. I am going to start the dishwasher and go to bed...LOL!!! I will probably crawl in bed in an hour and he will be sawing logs. :P lolololol..

xoxoxoxox Good Night :)

Thursday, December 2, 2010

I have such awesome friends. I don't know where I'd be without y'all.

it's THURSDAY!!!

My FAVORITE day of the week :) I get the put the trash out!!!! :) :) :) I LOVE taking trash to the curb!!!! :) :) :)
It's also my last day to teach Zumba until Saturday. I love my Friday breaks! as much as I love dancing I love my day off :) just because it's not in the back of my mind. :)

soooo, let's see...nothing new today :) I am going to go love on some boys :)
I hope your Thursday is smooth sailing :)

xoxoxoxoxxo!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

The chances of JUST A DREAM being the last song on my blog before I hit "NEW POST" and the first song to come on after I hit "POST" are slim and of course, it happened. I need to remove the song from my playlist. but for the record, "IF YOU EVER LOVED SOMEBODY PUT YOUR HANDS UP" :)

If the song wasn't so darn depressing, it would make a perfect Zumba warm up or cool down. :P
ok, I'm going.
It's 9:05. Time to go on a date with my hubby..watching Stormchasers on Discovery channel. :P
I got most of the DVDs in the mail...yes, Melissa, one is for you. :) TAGG, if you would like one I just need you to e-mail me your address to

Christina...your Facebook message just popped up as I was typing this but I am not responding right now because if I don't get my hiney in the other room I will miss my date with Mike. We will talk tomorrow, I'm sure.

Love you all...xoxoxoxoxo Good Night :)
it's so weird having a blog, a journal, friends that I want to keep in touch with...and yet not feel free to say what I feel or want to say...
basically my heart was shattered. but if you ask certain people, it doesn't's just me always wanting to play the victim. yes, because playing the role of the victim is SOOOO much fun. :)
whatever. it's done.
I once again am aware that I am ONLY RESPONSIBLE FOR MY OWN ACTIONS!!!
and I want my actions to please God..I really want Him to SMILE when He thinks of Robbie Niccum and I think He does, the majority of the time. :) :) :)
I was journaling ( in my private "real" journal :P) this morning and I was telling God that I don't know how to hand Him this hurt. Though I know He is right here with me and he wants to take it for me and help me through it, I really really really didn't know how to just give it to Him.
I had my Bible in my lap because I was going to look over the verse thatmost of our family memorized..1 Peter 3:8-12...I was going to remind myself that we are to live in harmony with others..we are to love as brothers, be sympathetic, compassionate, and humble...forgiving and all those good things....
well, after speaking to my Father who is always there to listen to me...I look down and see "Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good?" and EAGER jumped out at me....
I AM eager to do good! Everyone who knows me knows that!
The next line says "but even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed."

well, there you go. Thank you Jesus. I am BLESSED. and forgiven for being awful and adlibbing to live in harmony even if the rest of the people are being a__holes. I am just being honest..I will never make you think that I think I am holier than thou..I am very human and have very real feelings that DO matter.

in other news...doing an hour of Zumba and then eating a huge bag of peanut butter M&Ms for lunch on a somewhat empty stomach is not the wisest choice I could have made today.

I was at the post office yesterday and noticed a FED EX box in front of it and it made me chuckle.

I have completed a one hour ZUMBA DVD that I am sending to my out of town friends as Christmas gifts...I am hoping to get those in the mail today.

I am trying to not be my normal Christmas scrooge this is my first year that is SURE to be WITHOUT drama :) So that is a plus and a great start. :)
The five children are getting one gift each and then Santa will probably leave one thing for the family.

I have given Mike my list here and there..they are the best gifts I could ask one of those flashlights that stays on a plug in charger so it is always accessible and charged. A dumpster so we can throw everything away...stuff like that. :)

I think I am getting a bike hitch attached to his car( through U-HAUL)...I wish I could do it without him knowing about it..but I don't think I could pull that off. :P

We are spending Christmas in Effingham with his family. I was sad when I heard about it at first..because I really dislike the rushing around on Christmas I just told them...we are not rushing on Christmas morning....I would like to have a nice breakfast without rushing. I would like to take a nice hot shower without my heart palping from rushing...I told them they do not have to wait for us to eat and yea, that's that :) win win :) :) :)
After all that..I started thinking we could actually do our Christmas on Christmas Eve and go ahead and get there on time to be with everyone else. :P well, we'll least we don't HAVE to rush because I already told them we aren't..

well, I need to get these DVDS in their envelopes and look up everyone's addresses and all that jazz....I have missed you all. I caught up on your blogs but I was on a different computer that wouldn't let me COMMENT. :/ the nerve! :P

Before I go, you just have to know that I am on a journey of is going to be rough..I am going to have great days and not so great days...some days I will be understanding and compassionate..other days I am going to be really hurt and some days I will be really angry...but what I know, is I want this done, once and for all...seriously...OPERATION BIG GIRL PANTIES, ON!

Thursday, November 25, 2010

I hope you all had a fabulous Thanksgiving, whether it was with your family or your friends. :)
Mike's parents came after all :) Mike and I made a delicious lunch if I do say so myself. :)
Alex, Mike, and his parents ran to Bass Pro Shop so I have been putting clothes away :) I am thankful that job is done :p

As soon as they get home we are busting out the SURPRISE Gingerbread House Kits. :)

Samantha woke me at 4:30 this morning...I wonder if I am in training for Black Friday shopping.
3am eyes are burning. :P I think his parents might be spending the night and if they do I am thinking she would like to hit the Saint Louis stores. If she wants to, I can do it. :)

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Mike is working on getting our Wii fixed, AGAIN. We got it last Christmas and it has already been sent in for repair..and we have no idea why it went capoot again. :/ The Amish. I always admire them more and more when our "toys" cause us more trouble than they are worth.
On the other hand, without technology, I wouldn't be able to keep up with you all like .....yea...soapbox silencing now. :P

I have been slowly working on the house has been one of my 3am days.. I got up and I had not done the dishes before bed last night ( I think that was my first time since the "houseclean") so I started the dishwasher and a load of laundry...and then went through ANOTHER box of Lord knows what...and switched the laundry, piddled...and around 6 decided I was ready for a nap..but then my boys woke up so that killed that idea. :p

We Zumba-ed...My neighbor was the only girl to show up, which was absolutely fine with me :) She felt bad that I had to stay for just her and I am like "ARE YOU KIDDING??? WE GET TO DANCE!!!!" :) it was so funny..she has danced with me before so she knew a lot of the songs so we were dancing having full blown ( I guess I wasn't working her hard enough if we could still talk :P)

I was wanting to ask my neighbor to film my next DVD but I am thinking I might just do it myself, either tomorrow or Friday...we'll see. :) Just a thought. :)

Mike's parents MIGHT be coming over tomorrow. I called his mom today to see what they were doing and she said absolutely nothing because both of her daughters have their own thing going on with their spouses and we had our own thing going on so I told them they  are MORE THAN WELCOME here. :) I told her I wouldn't be doing a traditional dinner because I don't roll like that...
I told Mike what I did and he decided he wants a traditional dinner. :) so we got a turkey breast..I will do the mashed potatoes, the marshmallow yams, the stuffing, Velveeta mac-n-cheese for the kiddos, and of course, pumpkin pie..I will make the shipped topping because I LOVE it fresh..mmmm mmmm. :) Alex wanted to make the pie but they are $5 at WalMart. :P

I am trying to talk Alex into going to a Zumba class with me in the a.m. It's called Workout before you Pork out. :P lol

I also want to take her to see a movie Friday...I think it is called Burlesque or something like that...I should GOOGLE the spelling but I don't feel like it :)

oh my gosh I have Sam reading in my ear, Alex yelling at me..I am OBVIOUSLY trying to blog and so on and so on.I should go..before I Freak out. :)

oh yea, I am thankful for my many blessings. :) :) :)
I wish you could have seen the exchange that just happened between Siler and Alex..PRICELESS!

and I take back what I said about my hair

I was  upset disappointed...I thought I knew exactly what I wanted....but as it turns out..she gave me what I didn't know I needed. :) It's shorter than I had desired but I have received compliments out the wazoo about it...and if I were to be completely honest with myself...the "longer" hair was NOT flattering on me. I just kept thinking "if it gets even longer, it will look better"..I think that worked for me when I was younger and I didn't know how to style my hair... SO! Yay for my hair lady :) I may have just found MY style.

holiday plans

Thanksgiving..we are thinking TANGLED the movie in the a.m. and then I am thinking about buying 5 Gingerbread house kits..I saw them at Trader Joes...and doing those in the evening.
Alex has requested chinese take out for Thanksgiving lunch...why not???? :)

Christmas, have no plans yet...

but NEW YEARS!!!! One of my favorite red heads is coming to visit me for the first time!! I am SOOOOO excited!!!! For those of you that follow her blog, it's MOMSGONEGODLY :) YAAAAAAAYYYYY :)
I told her I would spoil her and her children rotten while they are here...and I think she is going to get to go to one of my Zumba classes with me :) I am so excited :) I know we will do the Arch...and the rest? we can chill, we can shop..whatever! It will be Fabulous! I know it!

That being has thrown me even more into OPERATION HOUSE TOGETHER mode. :)
I am calling it...GET THE HOUSE TOGETHER BEFORE 2011 :)  and it is coming together beautifully :)
I am beyond thankful for my friend who gave me her Saturday to help me. :) I need to call and get her and her family on my calendar for dinner. ( her daughter requested mac-n-cheese and her son, cinnamon toast crunch :P)

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Mushy Brain

Oh mY gosh. I have learned a lot of new brain is running OVERTIME. :)

I hope I get them all right tonight. I am Neeeervous!

well, I have one hour to shower, get the boys together, blah blah blah and blah blah...

it will be WONDERFUL when I don't have to take Alex to will give me another hour in my day 4 days a week!
but that is not I better run!

talk soon : )

Monday, November 22, 2010

I feel so much better today!!! YAY!!! Look out Zumba girls!!! :) :) :) :)

Sunday, November 21, 2010

I don't feel well today. That is what I get for not taking care of myself :/

I hope I recoop by tomorrow morning..the boys have school and I have Zumba.

I am wanting to paint a desk for the young girls. They are getting a computer in their room. It will not have internet access but they can play games on it.

Mike and I went to the neighborhood progressive dinner..I met a couple that has been honeymooning for 63 years. They are precious..Jim and Jeanne(sp?) They were my favorite couple to meet. My other favorite was (I don't remember her name!!!!!) and her husband, Lonnie. They moved here from Florida 10 years ago. He worked for Anheiser Busch..until 9/11. After 9/11, he realized he worked 80 hours a week and didn't know his daughters or who their teachers are and he walked away from that job. I had tears in my eyes, of course!
She is beautiful and glowing...they are expecting baby #3..a boy :) They have two daughters....she is a director for a challenged kids organization and she loves it...she has strawberry blonde hair and ya'll know I have a thing for red headed women! :) :) :)

I am going to go grab a tall glass of water, have you had any lately ?? :) :) :) Have you ZUMBAed lately??? or EVER???? :) :) :) :)

I am in the process of learning several songs...that could be a part of my exhaustion. :P lol...well, good night friends...xoxoxxo
after a Caramel Apple Martini
trying to get a picture for my friend..we were discussing how I will never "fit in" because I am not the "stylish" type. :P

nope..I am me. I don't buy in season, in style...blah blah blah and that is okay with me. :P

and I know I didn't get a picture of my hair before the cut..but it was pretty long..especially if I straightened it..
it's gone....
operation grow out..take 2
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Stylin Siler

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Friday, November 19, 2010

I am trying to not be upset about my hair. It's just hair.
BIG GIRL PANTIES...ON!!!! :) :) :) :)
I wish I could take my family to court....and let a jury rule..and if I turned out to be the looney psycho, I would accept it with humbleness...they make me ill.
somehow I became a follower of my own blog ???

I am back from my haircut..I think I need it thinned is like 2 inches shorter than I wanted but it's'll grow. :)
The boys and I are walking out the door..I am going to get a haircut..I hope she does an AMAZING job..I could use a Fabulous Hairstyle to put an extra pep in my step :P lol

Wish me luck, with both the haircut and the boys with me. :) :) :)

Happy Friday!!! :) :) :)

Thursday, November 18, 2010

POST 100 :)

I should have taken a picture...
I walked in my bathroom and it looked like I had ONE hard nipple but it was WAAAAAY over, like close to my armpit..I was like WTHECK??????
well, the bras I bought when I was marathon training have an inner and outer bra in one...and SOMEHOW a POPCORN KERNEL got in between the layers. :p
The kids are finger you know why?? because the house is fab and they can :)
I spent a good part of the morning learning a new Zumba song..then I went to transfer it to my MP3 player and it wasn't in my I went to get the CD and it wasn't in my folder!!! UGH!!!! I hope it's in Mike's car!!! But then I had to go back and learn ANOTHER song!!! the first song was slow and lots of lunges...the second one is pretty good pace...both salsas...I hope my girls like them..and I hope I get the music soon. :)  (sorry if this was all confusing, it's all I got. :P ) LOL

oh yea, the house is still FAB.

I need to make a one thing a day list of things to do.

1. clean carpets
2. clean area rug downstairs
3. paint a couple of different rooms but of course they would go on my list one at a time
4. fix boys closet

oh, I need to bring in the patio furniture!!!
and get ready for Zumba...GOTTA RUN! :)

that's all for now

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

since our house clean up on Saturday..

the boys have climbed in Mike's chair with a book to read.
the main level has remained tidy with little work..(I still have not "CLEANED" it..but when I decide to, it won't be a chore in itself to get to it)
the 4 youngers and Mike and me played "hot" football in boys' bedroom...lots of fun and no stress because downstairs was tidy.
I made a recipe (mango salsa) the tidy kitchen, without stress..
the girls have been doing nightly Bible devotions because the house is so peaceful , they can....(and without me recommending it which makes me sooooo happy)
mornings have gotten better..

now, I know it is only Wednesday..but I have accomplished a lot upstairs while maintaining the main level and frankly, between the house "tidying" and Zumba....I am tired...I will keep you updated on the house when I actually maybe implement some type of house "cleaning"...

our front dining room is so job is to go to the basement and find this thing we want to hang on the was given to me by someone very special...we used it over our bed in Fort Smith but we never hung it here because we were waiting for our room to ..well, WE HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED ON IT IN 3 and 1/2 years!!! so we are using this 3 candle holder thing in our dining will practically be the first thing people see when they walk in so I better get some pretty groovy candels :) lol

we are going to our first neighborhood progressive dinner this social, meet sounds like I could get into it :)

I need water..gonna run. :)

Monday, November 15, 2010

I only have an hour and a half to kick butt until I have to pick the boys up and take Alex to work...I had an excellent phone convo with my m.i.l. so that is okay that I lost time but now I have to go super speedy to catch some back soon..hope your day is FANTASTIC.!

Sunday, November 14, 2010

It's one of those 2am days....I hope I am able to fall back asleep at some point.

Yesterday a girlfriend came over at 11am...we didn't waste time and got to work...and worked 8 hours straight....on my house...I thought I had come a loooong way (and I have) but didn't realize how much farther I had to go...OH MY GOSH!!!!

Basically I was setting myself up for failure..I had some of my "office" here and some there and some on my headboard and some in my laundry room and she made me an office outside my bedroom door, at the top of the stairs...I would have NEVER thought of it!!!! It's crazy how it fits and I WOULD HAVE NEVER THOUGHT OF IT!

She decided that the pencil sharpener DOES NOT go next to the TV in the front room and nailpolish DOES NOT go in the bread cabinet....:/ AND she semi-permanently ATTACHED  the brush to the bathroom sink!!! We will NOT hunt for it in the a.m. EVER AGAIN!!!! hallelujah!

I will post pics soon but, even though I woke at 2am..I am soooo zonked and my body is too tired to reach over and grab my camera and snap the picture and upload it.

I have a furniture store in my front room...and wait until you see the load leaving this Tuesday....I don't think my 7 bags last week measure up!!! AND I AM STILL NOT FINISHED!!!!!!!

Zumba is going great..better than's awesome, amazing!!!

I need addresses e-mailed to me if you are wanting a DVD....OLUVR, and SASSY, yours should arrive far I only have 30 minutes and the DVD is not fabulous...but I should have an hour one coming shortly :)

well, I have more to say but I won't. :) Just know that I am making SLOOOOOOOOOOW progress in my healing and forgiving department...but it is progress. :P

xoxoxoxoxoxxo Much Love to YOU.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Cookie time with Mrs. Cindy while Mommy is in Fort Worth

No evidence of a mess and sugar rush time :)

This is the ONLY thing I bought on my 4 day trip..for the girl across the street..she is having baby girl #2 in less than a girl #1 will be 2 on April 2nd.

Jail Costumes that cost $1.90 each at Target :)

A lady at Zumba said our profiles are TWIN like.

Sam's skinny nose trick :P

this is Samantha after the lady told her she is JUST LIKE HER MOMMY. :P lol

well, my camera is cleared off now. :)
I called Ava took her a while to figure out who I was..because she couldn't hear me..but once we got to talking, it was great :) I wish I could be there to take care of her. :(

I am thinking about hiring Got Junk to come clean the rest of my "stuff"...I could use one of my monthly paychecks..but then when I think about that cost and what else I could do with the $$$ I think "ROBERTA! DO IT YOURSELF!"

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

I love my night runs with Alex. :) QT hot chocolate is the most nummy and she is just quite funny :P
and being the private person she is..that is all I can say about that :) lol

Mia made a new friend at school..She is going on her first playdate tomorrow...the lady has SIX kids!!! She must be CRAZY!!! lol...I love her already!!! :D

We watched HOW TO TRAIN A DRAGON as a family tonight (well, minus Alex because she was at church but she wants to watch it tomorrow night, so maybe Encore for those that want to?)..I missed the very end because I had to pick Alex up from church. :P

We are picking up Alex's car tomorrow or Friday..depending on schedules..but it will be ready tomorrow after 3! I need to have her call the insurance company and all that jazz...

alrighty, I'm outtie..going to catch the last 15 minutes of StormChasers with my Man :) Good Night :)

Where in the world is Robbie Niccum???

LOL!!! I miss two days and it feels like a year to me :P

I am over here *WAVING BIG* and I am doing FABULOUS!!!! :) :) :)

I just got off the phone with a blast from Fort Smith past and it was WONDERFUL!!!

I say it all the time but I MISS MY PLAYGROUP!!!!!

well, that is all I have time for right now...I have all kinds of buzzers and timers going off ;P LOL


Monday, November 8, 2010

I have 5 minutes...
I was still super sleepy when I woke up this morning..yawning yawning yawning...I didn't know how I was going to make it through a class. :) But I did dance step after another. :)

I went to Target afterwards...I needed to pick up some DVD protectors..for the 6 DVDS I have so far..they are only 30 minutes long but they will have to do for now.

While I was at Target...there was this GORGEOUS basket...on clearance for $9.99..regular $39.99..I had it in my hand..I had it in the cart...and then I knew that I did not have a SPECIFIC place ro purpose for it and I put it back. :p... I haven't even looked at my HTCI book in a loooong time....but my Jessi friend told me about that part :)

so yes..I am proud of myself for something as small as would think I ran a marathon as big as I am smiling :) lol boys are in school..I am going to try to find my timer and catch a 10 minute nap before I have to pick them up..*YAWN!!!*

Sunday, November 7, 2010

I am home and I am exhausted. I was thrown back into my role as TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE immediately...but it's okay..I will be as graceful as possible and grateful for the time I had. :)

So I was upstairs gathering EVERYONE's laundry because EVERYONE had sleepovers while I was gone..Mike and the 4 young ones went out of town to his parents...3 suitcases full and Alex stayed with a friend (but thankfully she does do her own laundry)...well, there was this awful smell was AWFUL! I couldn't find I thought "I'll just keep cleaning until I come across it"...(I also put in a Simply Irresistible scentsy bar...)
Alex comes to me and says "I put coffee shop in my room earlier" ( a scentsy scent) I was like "NOOOO! THAT IS THE SMELL!!!! IT'S AWFUL!!!!!! I THOUGHT I HAD THROWN THAT AWAY!"
I looooove Scentsy...ya'll know that...but my friend gave me a Coffee Shop to try..she thought it smelled like dog pee...I thought diarrhea. :P LOL!! I am SOOOO GLAD we found the culprit smelling up my house! Now I can wait to clean until tomorrow..because I am not joking when I say "I am really really tired" This weekend was like a dream and I just woke up. :/ but it is a good thing :) :) :)

Zumba tomorrow..I hope I remember the songs :)

Happy Daylight Savings

Good Morning :) :) :) :)

I am going to bullet point for if I were writing in my own personal journal. Some people use their blogs as journals...mine is a communication source. To update anyone who may be new to my originated because I had the best group of girlfriends, in the whole wide world...and I of my girls recommended I blog..because it is much easier to keep up with someone on your own time than trying to do the phone call thing. I didn't really think I would like the "blog thing" but once you get me talking, I don't seem to stop. ;) so my blog is what I would say to you if we were on the phone but with the luxury of adding pictures if I so choose. (which I am awful about doing MOST of the time)

but today..because I did not bring my journal with me..I am going to talk to myself for a minute :)

My fascinating trip
1. the gift that it was
2. my time with David
3. my first round of Zumba DVDs
4. watching the "wet wipe" version of cooking
5. watching the Original Cinderella, she was a brunette :), and hot chocolate with whipped topping
6. a midnight phone call with the best friend who maybe needed to talk at that time. :)
7. Serving.
8. No Pudge Fudge Brownies with whipped topping
9. Shopping
10. Iced coffee
11. Walking away from the Cookie!!!! :P
12.Good Golly Miss Molly Pizza
13: the grocery store..they carry eggs by the 6 pack (HOW CUTE!)
14. Oatmeal cookies with salad fixins'. :)
15. Prayer time with Shelley
16. Getting an attitude adjustment YET AGAIN!
17. Text time with my daughter
18. Another midnight phone call with a different friend. :)
19. An Extra Hour
20 A new awakening to my Fresh Brewed Life :) :) :)

I am amazingly blessed. Thankful. Humbled. Forgiving.

I will leave here changed. I will take those steps toward TRUE forgiveness. I will do it for God. I will make Him proud of who He created. I will use my gifts for Him. I will try my best to keep my mouth shut when I need to and open it when I need to. :)
This house is amazing! The home is even better! (and I have my own suite here called the Robbie Niccum suite) I am not joking. My very own bedroom and full bathroom better than any hotel.

(I even had Chick Fil A on my trip! :p) it always seems to be about the food :P lol

OH MY GOSH!!! I know I had told ya'll that I got into a 6 jeans...but usually my dress size is much larger...I got into a size 6 pretty dress!!! without any struggle! I was sooooooooo surprised! and excited! and surprised! I want to hit the consignment stores!!! Daddy? Can I have some money please? :) Thank you :)

I was given a book this weekend that I am SURE I will be sharing parts of it with you. :) :) :) Tidbits :)

I love you guys! Talk soon...I need to get ready to go to the airport. :) :) :)

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Here is what I know.
This trip was AWESOME!!!!
I thought I was going to sit down and write about it and as soon as I got in position to type,  my eyes started closing..I think I better sleep..I haven't slept much and tomorrow I go home..I need to be well rested :)
serving others is ALWAYS more satisfying than being "served". :) I am going to have SO much to tell you when I get back...But I may be SO busy hugging my husband and children that I may not find time..and then once I get back to my Zumba classes? Forget it :P LOL...

Not really, I will try to find time to write tomorrow :)

oh shoot I missed Friday by 2 minutes!

it's 12:03 now!  :P

Thursday, November 4, 2010

I am shutting down the computer because I decided I MUST take it with me. :) See you all tomorrow :)
AAAHHHHH!!!! I want to do one million things before I go!


I don't really have time to catch up on everyone's blogs but I wanted to peek in on my MOMSGONE GODLY super quick just because I felt I needed to....if you have a minute to read her post MY CHILD..please has made my day :)

Good Morning Woody :)

Sweet Siler

Loving the Christmas Tree

I don't know about the colors of the stockings. :) SO FUNNY! When we bought the stockings, we only had 4 daughters and for SOME REASON bought an extra blue one....HONEST! I HAD NOOOOOO PLANS ON HAVING MORE CHILDREN!!! and then we got Zach AND Siler :) so Mama had to go out and buy her blinged out Santa Stocking and I am trying to make sure the boys have the more "masculine" colored stockings..but then that rearranges the girls colors :P lol.....I should have stuck with all the same color and just had names embroidered with all my extra time and cash :P LOL...

I am thankful for my blessings this morning and the kids are SOOOOO happy the stuff is up...that makes it Christmas, right??? I only have 2 more months of "IS IT CHRISTMAS?" to go :) :) :) lol
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Wednesday, November 3, 2010

and to all a good night

I am tired. tired tired. :)
I would love to say that all my labor has paid off..but I have the room on my left in toy shambles and the room on my right in Christmas shambles.
The kids wanted to put the tree up but nobody really got into it so there is just a pile of decorations all over. *sigh and if I had bangs, I would blow them up right now* :P LOL!!!!

but it's okay..I am going to bed...hopefully I will be asleep before 10..and then I will wake up joyful and ready to go...I will be in somewhat panic mode because I am not at all ready to leave..and I just realized my flight leaves at 7, not 8:45 pm....I ARRIVE in Fort Worth at 8:45 :P yes, I am that dorky, I thought I ws leaving at 8:45...oh my gosh...National Niccum (lampoon) Vacation starting early!!! lol

I have not read anyone's blogs but I will hopefully catch up with ya'll Friday when my friend will be at work and I will be in her fancy, clean home, kid free. Me, my Bible and notebook, her garden, and hopefully a computer :) :) :) ( I do NOT feel like toting my laptop so if she doesn't have one for me to use I will be computer free until Sunday night..GASP!)

Good night friends...:)

Today is the Day YOU have made, I will Rejoice and be Glad in it :)

Maybe I am a little can let me know :)
7 trashbags full of clothes and misc items and I still wanted more..I should be more than proud of myself, yes?
Not to mention the amounts of trashbags of things PITCHED. :)
well, this is the same amount of bags but whichever one looks more impressive, go with that one :) LOL
( I am still wondering what else I can throw out there before they's addicting!)

I teach Zumba this morning and then I start packing for this weekend.
I actually got pictures DEVELOPED so I can mail them to my Grandma in ElPaso and my AVA in Fort Smith. (they don't e-mail :P)
Life is Good...No drama...I'm Done. :)

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Tuesday, November 2, 2010

quick drop in

I am trying to get a video from my camcorder to the computer so I can make chapters, burn DVDS and send them to my friends so they can ZUMBA with me from their home.

God is working on this heart of mine..making it soft towards those who have hurt me..I am assuming this whole process is going to take a while but knowing it has started is a relief. I don't want to be the hard hearted monster. :)

The 9 year old girl that I have been praying for since May..has went home to Jesus. two days ago. The reality that parents have lost a 9 year old daughter cannot be real to me...I know she is dancing in heaven, headache and pain free...but please say a prayer for the parents? Father, comfort them in this time of sorrow..and please, when their mourning time is over....give them fabulous memories of the life she lived and turn their mourning into dancing a celebration of life...
When I Zumba-ed was a celebration of LIFE in Courtney's honor...
we never met, but I loved her.

Tonight is the last night to get "stuff" gathered..The charity people are coming tomorrow :) Tomorrow night we are putting the Christmas tree up..and then I leave Thursday..through Sunday....I am already excited to get home and be a refreshed Momma for my kiddos :) :) :)

well, I don't know when I will be back (everytime I say that I am back like 20 times that day :P) but know that I love you and think of you :) :) :) and pray for great blessings for you. :) Hug those that you love..LOTS :) (((((HUGS)))))

Sunday, October 31, 2010

I gotta feelin'

:) I was jamming out to Black Eyed Peas :P Let's Do it, Let's Do it...I gotta feelin' that tonight's gonna be a good night :)

Mike is on his way to the Rams game...

I am "piddling" through the house. I LOVE "piddle" days!

Sam and Mia are playing with the neighbor kids outside, Zach is with a friend down the street...that leaves Siler...he is dressed in a Spiderman suit trying to continually raid the candy. Alex is at church....she had such a time at the Youth Convention. That girl shares my heart. (for human trafficking)

well, before I get off on a rant about that, I should go...I shall piddle and pray :) :) :)

I hope the Rams win, but if they don't? eh'  I am almost feeling "so over" football anyway. (yes, I just said that)

Saturday, October 30, 2010


Very humbled. I learned the difference today about blogging MY feelings and blogging OTHERS lives...even though their lives "affect" me..they are not MY life to blog about....

One would think that maybe that was common sense? But it wasn't for me. Hmmmm.

My blog may be getting it's second face for my 37th year...and it hasn't even been 2 months yet. :P

I have been up since 2am...I am actually feeling okay for the moment :) I am making some chicken soup with chicken stock, carrots, and Amish egg noodles. ANYTHING with egg noodles has to be FAB, right? lol

I had the BEST phone conversaton this afternoon that I couldn't possibly go into because it would take me FOREVER but I have a date in two weeks at my house that I am VERY excited about :):):) More info to come later :)
Oh shoot I am suddenly tired!

Friday, October 29, 2010

:) It's Friday :)

Today, I cut someone's hair and had a great visit during :)

Got to see Alex for a little bit before she left for a Youth Retreat.

GOT A NAP! YAYAYAYAY!!!!! I felt SO MUCH better after that!

Made turkey sausage from ground turkey and MMM MMMM it was DELICIOUS! (thanks to and turkey sausage for dinner, with oranges and I had an avocado)

I have learned a few new songs the past couple of days...FUN FUN FUN! Sweat sweat sweat is what I do do do. :P lol

I better go get ready for bed, I have to teach in the morning. :)
I am leaving Thursday night for a weekend away.
There is a lady 15 years older than me that has known me for 30 years.
She has a picture of her wedding and I am in the back standing up to see her.
She has watched me go through some phases. :)
Today she is soooo proud of the woman that I have become. ( if you would have seen me then, you would understand) was really wild how it came about....but she bought me a plane ticket to visit her in Ft. Worth. :) Maybe she can take me neighborhood hunting :) I could, at least, get one of those HOMES magazines to see what I'd be looking fun!
The itch to be clutter free has returned...I asked Alex to go to the basement with me for an hour last night..we were down there for 3 and really kicked didn't even take us the 3 hours because we stopped and talked and played a lot..SHE said she wants us to go down again and finish it off, on one of her days off...I guess my itch was contagious :)
My coffee is ready...I am NOT ready to start this day..I won't lie...
I was up too late and too early...
I am cutting someone's hair this morning and Alex is leaving on a Youth Retreat so I have to run her to the bank and blah blah..I REALLY hope I get a nap least I don't have to be "on" for a class today.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Siler had stripped somewhere along the way?
Samantha picked out her outfit..she wanted to be a cowgirl and I actually bought her an outfit from Target but she wanted to do the outfit herself so the outfit is going back and she is happy :)
Mia is a bride, but without the veil at this point. I hope to get her one before the actual night. :)

Samantha was the only one that ran by me while I had my camera out...Mia and Zachary must have been running laps through the trunk lines with their bags :P Lord help me, there's a LOT of candy in my house :p
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I am starting to feel a little more like "me".
I was able to wake up this morning with joy.
I am truly embarrassed by my lunatic behavior that past couple of days.
I won't make excuses.
I say I want to follow Jesus example but I act like a fool because I have been hurt..HELLLO! 'HE was oppressed and afflicted, yet HE did not open his mouth' ~ it's in Isaiah. :)
Somewhere in Isaiah, I haven't taken the time to search for it, but it talks about FORGETTING THE PAST and living in the present, moving on...
I don't know how to do that when the hurt is still present...I don't know how to not be appalled by people.
I know the first thing I need to do is quit acting so tough..because I am not. I am one of the most tender people you could meet...cutting people out of my life isn't something that would normally be in my character.

How funny, I say I woke up with joy and now I have tears streaming down my face...but they feel, almost, I was able to move a boulder this morning.
I don't know where today will take me.
I know that I am tired of making excuses for things in my life.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I am sure more will come later...

Can you believe this is my baby girl???? She should be Jr. Miss America if you ask me :p
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